Desperate desires and unadmirable plans.
Desperate desires and unadmirable plans.

Oil on canvas 15" x 24" 2019. Pricing available upon request.

Decisions, Decisions.
Decisions, Decisions.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 24" 2018. Pricing available upon request.

All my dreams were just islands in the sky.
All my dreams were just islands in the sky.

Oil on canvas. 36" x 48" 2016. Pricing available upon request.

We are not alone in this city that is our home.
We are not alone in this city that is our home.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 24" 2014. Pricing available upon request.

We can't spend our lives waiting to live.
We can't spend our lives waiting to live.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2013. Pricing available upon request.

I wasn't born to follow.
I wasn't born to follow.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2012. Pricing available upon request.

I can't be your prisoner.
I can't be your prisoner.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 12" 2012. Pricing available upon request.

Another innocent girl.
Another innocent girl.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2012. Pricing available upon request.

All I'm losing is me.
All I'm losing is me.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2012. Pricing available upon request.

Seventeen.
Seventeen.

Oil on canvas. 36" x 24" 2011. Pricing available upon request.

Beginning in an ending.
Beginning in an ending.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 12" 2011. Pricing available upon request.

So pace the stairs to your apartment like it's where you want to be.
So pace the stairs to your apartment like it's where you want to be.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 12" 2011. Pricing available upon request.

Taking your own life with boredom, I'm taking my own life with wine.
Taking your own life with boredom, I'm taking my own life with wine.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 12" 2011. Pricing available upon request.

Not the same.
Not the same.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2011. Pricing available upon request.

Even at our worst...
Even at our worst...

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2010. Sold.

A reflection of who you used to be.
A reflection of who you used to be.

Oil on canvas. 12" x 12" 2009. Sold.

I'll take my chances and go it alone.
I'll take my chances and go it alone.

Oil on canvas. 44" x 30" 2008. Pricing available upon request.

Buried.
Buried.

Oil on canvas. 26" x 34" 2007. Pricing available upon request.

Thirteen.
Thirteen.

Oil on canvas. 26" x 34" 2007. Pricing available upon request.

Don't look now.
Don't look now.

Oil on canvas. 26" x 34" 2007. Sold.

I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground.
I'm so tired of picking myself up off the ground.

Oil on canvas. 26" x 34" 2007. Pricing available upon request.

Hold on.
Hold on.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2006. Sold.

The Shower Scene.
The Shower Scene.

Oil on canvas. 24" x 36" 2006. Pricing available upon request.

The Art of Autobiographical Memories

 

My life experiences and love for photography are the inspirations for these paintings.  My paintings feature women in various settings.  The images I create are often symbolic or metaphorical of intense emotions.  I also love to find the beauty in the decrepit and run down, whether it’s a decaying building or a distressed woman.  My artwork is my visual diary.  I recall past events or emotions from my life and then think of images that portray them.  Once I have an idea for the painting, I set up a photo shoot and recreate the scene that I imagined.  I orchestrate the photo shoot by telling the model what to do and how to look.  After perusing many photographs, I choose one and paint directly from it.

 

A lot of people have asked me why I paint such sad and depressing images. "Paint happy things!" is what some would say.  But I never looked at it the way they did.  People may automatically think that any emotion that is considered a "negative emotion" is a bad thing.  Emotions like sadness, heartache, loneliness, defeat, hopelessness, fear, and worry.  But I don't see them that way.  To me, they are neither positive nor negative.  I see them as experiences, as lessons, as growth.  What kind of person would you be if you had only experienced just one emotion in your life?  If you had never experienced pain, sadness, or heartache?  I think that those emotions -the "negative ones"- are essential for human existence.  They are imperative for our growth, our experiences, our survival.

 

I still remember what one of my teachers once said to me during my senior year of art school.  "You're too sentimental."  But once again, I didn't see that as a bad thing.  What we remember from our lives, why we remember, and how the autobiographical memory system affects our lives makes our memory system an incredible thing.  Why wouldn't I be fascinated with what my mind remembers?  Why wouldn't I cherish the lessons that I've learned in my life?  Why wouldn't I be proud of what I've been through - the good and the bad?  We are what we create.  We go through many steps in life to become who we are and I have recorded some of mine on canvas.

 

One of the amazing things about humans is that we can find ways to relate to one another.  Some of us have been through the same experiences, but they affect each of us differently.  I would like people to look at my paintings and feel some emotion, or maybe even feel like they have felt the same way the person in my paintings do.  When people feel empathy from someone, it gives them the opportunity to express their inner feelings and experiences with one another, which deepens the human connection.  I want my artwork to be universal.